A heart that is confused and left alone as the mind wanders off into a world of distraught

It hurts to say,
It hurts to feel,
It pains your heart,
It takes you away into a world of distraught.



Lately, my mind is always cloudy, shaded by the things in life. I don't know why. At daylight my lips curves into a smile but at night my eyes turns into a never ending rain. The essence of life brings me down but most of the time brings me laughter and joy.

I have no idea, but I have a clue. What is that suppose to mean? nothing.
God's creation, the humans. It fascinates me a whole lot but it confuses me why the minds of a person works in such different and difficult ways for a person to understand.

You wish that you could have a perfect soul mate,
You wish that you could have a perfect friend,
You wish that you could have a perfect life,

but at the end, it all turns down into a wasted pair of jimmy choo that isn't your size.

I can form words of hints, words like a layer of icing on a cupcake but I can't form words that brings the cupcake to a delicious, mouth watering tasty-like cupcake.
These words are just the beginning to describe what I'm feeling, it isn't the words that brings me to the climax and an ending to my life full of stories. These expressions are just the zipper of a Christian Dior's dress not the material of what its made of.

I wish I could say the words and make you understand my world of distraught, but I couldn't. No one couldn't because the person that lives inside me, she herself is confused and wanting to be free from everything, everyone and her own self.

by a girl with a brown highlight on her dark hair but a heart that shatters.